My Fight For Joy

by John G
(Wheaton, Ill)

The searing pain of emptiness burns at the innermost part of my being

My soul longs in agony for some sense of peace in this life

But the idols of my heart have left me frustrated and despaired

All day long my faith is under attack by doubts of Your faithfulness

I lack the strength to enjoy You, O Lord

I've pulled my hair and banged my fist against my forehead and buried my head under my pillow at night

O how I would love to seek, savor and serve You, O God

But yet my hard heart won't move!

I beg You, Lord, remove the idols of my heart that I've trusted in all my life

Lift me out of this dark depression and cause me to believe again

Put in me a joyful passion for Your glory